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[He's NERVOUS!!! But at least he accepts the handholding, for however brief it lasts.

Last time they were in this specific spot, it was dark outside. Now it's the middle of the daytime, and Kanda can still clearly recognize that this is the spot where they rolled in the mud and kissed each other stupid. His face somehow manages to get redder.]

I don't think you're supposed to pay someone back for a date, Beansprout.

The date is free! The stuff for it had to be bought though, innit? I don't mind. I've been coming out here a lot to get shells in my downtime, so...

[ He lets go of Kanda's hand and finds somewhere to put the basket down briefly. Then he just kind of stares at Kanda for a moment, a soft smile on his face. He's... funny. To be so flustered over something like this. It's not like Allen can talk too much. After all, he's also got quite a bit of red to his cheeks. Nothing that rivals Kanda's, though.

He doesn't say anything for a few seconds, just... taking all of this in, and trying to swallow the want to kiss Kanda on his face right now. He'll clear his throat eventually, though. ]

Go ahead and shake the blanket out, I'll help flatten it.

[Kanda wants to argue further, but it seems like they're going to go in a circle, so he'll save it for now. He nods, a bit stiff, then whips the blanket out before laying it down. It's big enough for both of them and the basket, and it's definitely going to get stained with food and grass and mud now that he thinks about it, so it's probably good that Heimr pointed him in the direction of buying a specific picnic blanket after all.

He slowly sinks into a sit, and when the basket is set down, opens it up. He figures Allen will grab what he wants, so.]

So we eat and, what, talk? [Yeah Kanda. That's a date.]

Yeah, I think so? I think um... it's the "quality time" aspect of it that's supposed to be nice, though.

[ Because, like, he knows Kanda isn't much of a talker. That's always been more Allen's thing. ]

So even if we're not talking, it's just the spending time together bit that constitutes a "date", I think? I'm not a hundred percent sure, obviously. This is my first one, too...

[ Though, he does sit once he's helped smooth it out, immediately yoinking a sandwich to stuff his face with. ]

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[Makes sense. He nods, unwraps his own sandwich, and starts eating. Some silence passes as he watches the Seaborn blorp in the water, sometimes spotting Sinann going up and down the river with them. The breeze rustles the trees, the chatter of people out and about becomes a dull hum this far out, and Kanda looks over at Allen and watches him for a minute instead of focusing on his food.

Pretty.

After a minute more of eating, he mutters:]

I know I'm being awkward as hell today. But... thanks for coming out here.

"Today"? [ He reaches over to nudge Kanda playfully. Despite his teasing, he happily rocks himself from side to side with the sandwich lingering close by so he can take another bite when he finishes speaking. ]

I should be thanking you. This was your idea, after all. I didn't think you'd right consider a date with me at all, but I'm chuffed to bits you did.

I've been thinking of it. [He admits, as if it needed admitting when he was so lost in thought and just blurted it the fuck out like he did.] Ever since we got in that spat in our greenhouse.

[He likes Allen so much you see. And he doesn't know how the fuck to deal with that.]

[ It's normal for someone to say to their boyfriend that they like them and want to spend time with them. That is, in essence, what Kanda is saying here. And yet, somehow, Allen still finds himself shocked and embarrassed to the point his face feels way too hot. He was expecting Kanda to get goaded and bicker with him about the teasing, but this... ah...

His heart feels like it might just break his ribcage at this point. ]

Since... [ "Our spat", Kanda says, when what he definitely means is, "when we were both making out in the greenhouse". So... then... he didn't just leave. He was thinking about it. Fuck, okay- ] I-I was thinking about that, too, but...

Uh???? I didn't expect that from you is all! To say something like that, I... you've gone and given me the collywobbles, you know. I don't think I can eat like this...

[Yeah since they were making out in the greenhouse and Allen pulled his collar and made his voice all sultry for no fucking reason. That time, yeah. You know, every spat is like that obviously, so "spat" is a very good general term to use and not at all Kanda's way of beating around the bush. If he admits he likes kissing his boyfriend, he may very well go into cardiac arrest! Which would be bad, obviously, because he obviously cannot come back from that and obviously hasn't done that before or anything.]

You can't eat? Colour me shocked. [Please eat please don't make him think of making out even More right now.]

[ "For no reason" the reason was to flirt. He was flirting. Allen can give flirting, but receiving it breaks his brain a little. This is the man who got Hellishly flustered because Johnny called him his friend, after all.

He fidgets for a moment. ] For right now! I need t' calm down a smidge is all. Surely you've had those before, too. Like when your stomach gets all twisty?

[For no reason!!!!! There's no reason to take Kanda out like this okay he's Gay he likes Men he's having war flashbacks to the greenhouse and if he thinks about it too long he thinks he wants to Bite Allen (flirting).]

Yeah. You do that to me sometimes.

[Since it's honesty hour and all.]

...hehe.

[ Okay, he's delighted now, actually. He's so happy that he can make Kanda feel like this, too. It's a nice feeling, even if it makes him a little dizzy. This does spur him to stuff his face once again, though. He waits to swallow before speaking, of course. He's going to do his best to not talk with his mouth full while on a date. ]

Then I'll do my best to make you feel that more~! Maybe you'll be calmer with your stomach in knots or something?? [ Again, he's teasing. He is beaming at Kanda from that reveal, though. ]

Tch. I fucking won't, thanks though.

[He will not be calm. In fact—]

The more you try to rile me up, the more I feel feisty around you. And yes, "stomach in knots" counts as riling me up.

[Kanda, can you just like... admit that you're a little horny sometimes. Can you please.]

[ Allen is definitely taking “riled up” as “wanting to fight” so— ]

If anything I do counts to you wanting to swing a punch at me, then isn’t it better to not do that stuff.

[ He reaches in the basket for another sandwich. ]

[Grouchy grouchy grouchy:]

I don't want to punch you. It's... I'm bad at this shit, and my first instinct when you do anything is violence.

[Yes he knows this is bad this is why he's so flustered though, he doesn't have an outlet and so he has to feel his emotions.]

[ “Isn’t that why you wanted to beat the shit out of me when you and Johnny found me?” he wants to ask, but ultimately keeps to himself about it. He… recognizes that Kanda is being open. And that he’s literally admitting that most things get translated through a violence filter. ]

Don’t say you’re bad at this. You’re just new to it. I am, too, so it’s gonna be clumsy and bad. But… so long as we both know that, then it should be okay, right? We can tell each other how we’re feeling, and we can go from there.

[ Though, he’s still not convinced Kanda doesn’t want to just punch him all the time. But, as he said before, he’d also wanted to punch Alma so…????

Ugh. He doesn’t know how to make the punchy feeling into affection feeling, though. He barely knows how to do any of this. Shouldn’t he be doing something romantic? Isn’t that what dates are supposed to be about?

He contemplates this as he eats his food. ]

Besides… our kisses have been real nice. So you’re not bad at that.

[Violence is his love language. He likes their stupid wrestling matches. He didn't like stabbing Allen with Mugen but they both know he's going to be hung up on this for the rest of his goddamn life. But he likes the way they tussle and roll around together, whether it's a serious thing or not. He thinks something's wrong with him.

Kanda slowly knocks their shoulders together and continues eating.]

I think you're biased.

[...]

I like them too.

Maybe~! I think I'm allowed to be biased.

[ He leans his head over to press a little kiss against Kanda's cheek while he's here, pulling away with a big smile. ]

Good! Because you're going to be getting heaps more of them. It would be a right shame if you didn't enjoy it.

[It's so hard to be forward... he has no idea how Allen does it. Kanda would say it gives him hives if that weren't a blatant fucking lie.

Anyway, his cheeks are dusted pink again. Thankssss.]

You'd know if I didn't like it.

[Is all he says, still awkward as hell, as he's finishing off the sandwich he ate.]

[ He smiles brightly at him here, reaching over to tuck some of Kanda's hair behind his ear. Food can wait, he wants to admire his dumb as hell boyfriend. ]

You're cute. In general, I mean, but especially when you blush. [ Perhaps because it's a way for Allen to read him, when he's otherwise pretty unreadable? He isn't sure, but... he gently brushes his thumb over Kanda's cheek. ] Sometimes I worry that I've said "I love you" to you too soon. That you might not believe it, considering how we've been before, but I hope you know that I do. That I now always want to let you know that you live in my heart.

[ Sorry, Kanda. You picked this one, which means you gotta deal with him when he's feeling soft and mushy. ]

[Be SO nice to him be SO patient with him he's STUPID he's STRUGGLING— Allen is tucking his hair back behind his ear and brushing over his cheek and he swears to God he's about to go into cardiac arrest. Help. Can his seal heal stupidity because—]

I. [...] Idiot.

[He has big feelings for Allen and all of them come out as insults.]

I'm not stupid. I know. Obviously you spilled your guts to me after that stupid game in the inn.

I don't understand how you can say so much embarrassing shit so easily.

I didn't say you were stupid. [ His free hand is reaching to find Kanda's so he can hold his hand. ] I just know it's not always easy to accept just a... loaded feeling from someone. Like love.

[ It was hard for Allen to. For a long time. It's why he pushed people away like he did. It's why he questioned why he was unable to reciprocate feelings he received from people at all... Even now, he's so certain he's not "loving" as much as he "should". But he wants to. So badly, he wants to. ]

Do you think I'm saying this easily? [ He lifts Kanda's hand here and turns it around to flatten his palm against Allen's chest, where his heart is beating a bit faster than it should be. ] Just because I'm saying what I'm thinking, does not make this easy, Kanda.

[And now they're holding hands. ...and now Allen's moved his hand to rest over his heart oh God help Kanda has no idea what to do now. Instead of doing something substantial, he just sort of curls his fingertips inwards and properly grips Allen's sweater.

Don't mind the smoke coming out of his ears.]

Yes. I don't fucking get it.

[But he's moving closer anyway, still with his hand on Allen's chest.]

I don't even know how to begin doing that. I think I'd shrivel up and die the second I tried.

You don't have to say anything, then. Words have never been your strong suit, I'm aware. [ He chuckles, tilting his head as his soft silvers scan Kanda's face inquisitively. Or... maybe just to invite him closer? Allen's set aside his food for now, anyway. ] Actions have always been easier for you.

So, then, what do you feel like doing?

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