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[Faith is not given freely with Kanda; only Allen gets hymns and worship whispered between their tied tongues.

Sitting up isn't getting arduous. Not really. Yet Kanda thinks to himself that some things are better done laying down all of a sudden, that they could be far closer if he let himself fall backwards against the blanket and takes Allen with him.

...

Yeah, fuck it. While they're mid-makeout, Kanda tips slowly backwards until Allen is effectively using him as a pillow, still kissing him, still forgetting how to breathe sometimes.]

[ Oh, falling—

Allen easily flops on Kanda, trying to adjust himself to make sure the both of them are more comfortable. He doesn’t want to be digging into Kanda’s ribs, after all. He doesn’t stop kissing Kanda for some time, too deep into the passion of it all to stop… until he finally mutters a bit into it between kisses: ]

W-we should… stop. [ Kiss. ] We’re still outside. …We have food to finish.

Mm...

[Kiss, kiss.]

Yeah. Probably. [Licking Allen's bottom lip.] I'm not stopping until you do.

[Kiss. Kiss, kiss.]

[ Sigh. He would put this on Allen.

...

He stays, for just a few more kisses, until he can will himself to sitting upright. This flighty feeling... it's too much for Allen. It's intoxicating.

He's absolutely forcing Kanda to continue when they're home, but for now... ]

Here, sit up. And spread your legs out a little. [ He's offering his hand out to help him sit up. Once Kanda does this (or, well, Allen will nudge his legs if he has to), then Allen will turn around and sit right up against Kanda, between his legs, and gesturing for him to wrap his arms around Allen, too.

It's a date! They should be date-y!!! ]

[ A—

Boy sit? Between legs sit? Put chin on top of boy head sit??? Holy fuck. Yeah he's docile he's sitting like this. He's been tamed. They're doing Date-y things. Allen has broad chest behind his head congratulations.]

You'd better eat all those sandwiches. I only got that much shit because you have a black hole for a stomach.

[Aka: Use this opportunity to eat food because there's no way they don't start making out again when they're home.]

Do you think I'm not going to? Jeez, have some faith in me. [ He's pulling out the bowl of fruit salad, along with a few more sandwiches. He will vacuum these down as he leans back into Kanda, thanks.

He also takes a spoonful of the salad and raises it above his head to Kanda's lips. ] Here. Try this.

[...he feels. Some kind of way about Allen feeding him. He can't figure out the way, but it's definitely a Way that is being Felt.

He cranes his neck a bit and eats the fruit before Allen dumps it on himself. This is complicated. It feels incorrect. It's weird feeling the resistance from the spoon and Allen's hand while he's trying to also not get food on Beansprout. But.

...

Anyway he's going to swallow and not think about how gross being loved feels.]

There we are! Good, innit? [ He puts the spoon in the bowl for now so he can go back to his sandwiches, but he is... absolutely delighted to just sit here and exist. It's... nice. It's really nice. It's a nice day, the river sounds are nice, the rustling of the nearby trees is nice, feeling Kanda's heartbeat against his back is nice...

He's happy. Truly, genuinely happy. It's been a while since he's felt like this without the undertones of melancholy. ]

[Flops his cheek onto Allen's head. Don't talk to him he's holding his boyfriend.]

...yeah. Better without all the honey or syrup or whatever poison you were about to put into it.

[Kanda oh my god]

[ Snrk. ] "Poison". Please. You're going to try it if I ever do put honey in there. Or at the very least, some yogurt. [ which the Brits pronounce "Yah-Gert" like sociopaths-

Anyway, Allen is stuffing his face with one hand and patting Kanda's arms playfully with his other. ]

[*gordon ramsay voice* yahgert]

You're trying to kill me. [Kanda declares, a bit playfully, a bit "please god don't give me sweets"-ly.] You want my tongue to shrivel up and fall out of my mouth.

[...]

Plain vanilla yogurt is fine. [Not pronounced yahgert btw]

[ He waits to swallow before speaking. ] You'll survive one sweet treat once in a blue moon, Kanda. I don't make food that often! You have to try the stuff I make! That's all part of being a supportive boyfriend!!!! You signed up for this!!!!!

Being poisoned is part of being supportive, huh.

[He's being dramatic on purpose. Allen sounds happy, so he acquiesces, talking while his cheek is squashed into the top of Allen's head.]

Fine. If it's you. [Don't sound so put out gay boy] You're goddamn lucky you're cute.

[oops that slipped out]

[ He's too enthused about all of this to be upset with Kanda right now. Sorry if you wanted to playfully fight - Allen's in golden retriever mode. ]

Hm? Me?? Look who's talking. Don't think I didn't notice all those compliments you'd get. [ He brushes some of the crumbs from his pants before he's reaching for the rest of the sandwiches. ]

They weren't calling me cute. They called me pretty. Did I tell you about the fuckin' guy that tried to kidnap me because he thought I was pretty? [What a story for a first date Kanda. At least he's FINALLY loosening up. At least he's Talking without feeling so fucking awkward.] I beat his ass, but still.

...What? No. You didn't. What????

Ugh. It was when Johnny and I were first looking for you, near-ish to the red light district we investigated. There was some creep who "collected" beautiful people and wanted to add me to his harem or something. Johnny said I didn't need to beat his ass as badly as I did, but fuck that.

[He shrugs, like this is a normal story and not "nearly getting trafficked or something".]

Fucking freak.

..................................................................................

You were looking for me in the red light district?!

We were looking for you across the entire country, dipshit! The red light district was just one of the places we were trying to track you down in! I don't know, we didn't know, you could have stopped by a brothel to take the edge off or something!

[Huffs!!!]

Wh-?!? Huh?!? Do you think I really am like Cross?!

[ He would've relented if Kanda brought up Cross' debt, but this is too much. He is embarrassed. ]

No, and we were trying to trace a paper trail of debt too, but we also didn't know where the fuck you'd be in general — and no one at the Order would ever think you'd go in there, me fucking included since I bitched and complained about it the entire time, but that would have been a perfect hiding spot! I don't know! We searched for you in every public area we could get into! And a few private ones!

[im js kanda definitely did a few B&Es.]

You're not like Cross, but you have a way of fucking disappearing, I don't fucking know, I didn't want to be there either, no one had seen you and I was desperately trying to escape having women in my face. [Kanda. Take a breath.]

...

[ Allen falls silent for a moment, just taking that all in. Eventually, he leans back and tries his best to look up at Kanda. He doesn't accomplish this well, given how they're sitting, but... ]

You... really looked that hard for me? [ Like, yes, he knew Kanda and Johnny had been at it for months, but... he didn't realize just how thorough... ]

Of course we did. [Kanda says, like this is the most natural thing someone like him — someone so grouchy and mean and awful, "someone like you" as Allen had once said — could ever state.] I wasn't exaggerating when I told you we spent months on it. Part of me was worried you'd be in an area we already searched, that you'd double back somehow and we'd completely miss you while we pressed forward. We were lucky to find you when we did.

[ Allen's hands gently trace little circles into Kanda's own as he looks down again. He gives a tiny sigh at that, shaking his head. ]

Saying it was luck implies there might be a world out there where you had missed me. I don't think that's true. I think... I think we would've inevitably always merged paths again. Not because of fate, just because... it's you. It's you, and it's me.

...

That's just what I think, anyway.

[He tilts his head forward and down a little bit to meet Allen's gaze while Allen's leaning back. It's a bit of an awkward angle, but it's steep enough thanks to their height difference that he can easily lean in and kiss Allen upside-down. Kanda can't explain what comes over him in that moment, it just... does, and they're parting before he can think further on it.]

It's you and me. [He echoes.] Yeah, maybe. It didn't stop me from wondering what would happen if I passed you by.

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