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[Kanda makes a face. No, no caramel, this sounds fucking awful.]

Not too much honey. [...] Or you can make your own bowl, I guess.

[But Kanda! The joy is sharing!! The joy is feeding each other! Stop being a coward and like sweets you ass.]

...You know, maybe you'd be less of a sourarse if you ate some sugar sometimes.

[ Pouting. Eat sweets with him, they're not that bad. Especially mixed with other things!!! ]

I don't fucking like them, I don't know what to tell you. Fruit is the sweetest I can go without wanting to rip my tongue out.

[And even then, a lot of the fruits he chose are things with deeper flavour profiles than just "sugar". Lots of tart fruits and things that are neutral like cantaloupe and papaya. Honestly, it's kind of a summery mix. He knows Allen will eat fucking anything, so he probably could have been a little more thoughtful and grabbed berries or something, but alas, he was too busy trying to find things they'd both like, and Kanda is ostensibly the more picky of the two.]

There has to be something sweet you like. I'm convinced you just shoved your tongue into a container of sugar and decided everything sweet is your enemy or something.

[ He shoves the assembled sandwiches over to Kanda and goes over to start grabbing fruits to cut up. ]

It's alright, it doesn't have to have a sweetener. [ Like, theoretically, it made it thicker, too, but Allen doesn't know how food works. That's Link's job- ]

[He shrugs.]

I like pumpkins and bell peppers.

[Okay, those aren't... inherently very sweet, but he's getting closer?]

And I guess... a sweet soy broth. [And those aren't even Sweet in the Candy sense, they just lean more slightly toward sweet than other flavours.] Does it matter?

No, I'm just giving you a hard time. We don't have to bring anything sweet. You know I'm not all that picky. And, at the end of the day, meats are always going to be my go to~

[ The fruits are going to be pretty sweet, though. How can he make the fruit salad less sweet so Kanda will like it, too...? Maybe he could put like... uh... peanut butter? Eugh. That sounds gross mixed with the orange juice, though.

He'll think on it. ] I'm not a very good cook, anyway, so it really only matters to Li, I think.

[Kanda is fine with the fruits as they are, Allen, don't sweat it. The orange juice is Good Enough for him.]

He can cook around me, or I can make my own meals. [So it's not a big deal.] I'm almost done with chopping these, by the way.

[The cutting board is full of fruit juice and Kanda's hands are sticky.]

[ He! Wants this date to be perfect, okay!!! ]

But it's more fun to eat together! At least, that's how I feel. Having the big cafeteria at home with all of our friends was nice, wasn't it? [ Allen spins around and brings Kanda a bowl over, filled with bits of fruit that he's cut up, too. Not... nearly as much as Kanda, though. Good Lord, he works fast. He'll grab their orange juice, then, and pour a bit into the bowl. ]

[Well, he Is kind of known for chopping things up into bits. The fruit is in the bowl, the orange juice is put in, and Kanda pretends he understands this ritual.]

No. [He says, immediately killing the fucking vibe.] There are too many fucking people there. I don't like crowds.

…Maybe picking a picnic with you was a bad idea. [ He’s stirring the salad to make sure the fruits are all absorbing that citrus taste. ] Surely you enjoyed it when we were having lunch together with General Tiedoll and Johnny?

[Grumpily:]

I enjoyed lunch with you, I could take or leave the others. I don't people. You know I don't people.

...but it was better than being back at the Order, I guess.

[ Allen plops the bowl lid (so handy!!!) on, and shuffles over to wash his hands so the fruit guts are off of him and pick Timcanpy up from the counter. ]

Don’t give me that. You think I didn’t notice you were proper smiling then?

That wasn’t because of me.

Tch. It was, but whatever you want to believe.

[Admitting that he might appreciate everything Tiedoll has done for him (and that he likes Johnny) will kill him dead in one hit so. He's not doing that. Fuck y'all etc etc etc.]

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I was stuffing my face, you weren't even looking at me. Don't be a bellend! It's alright to like some people. What do you think is gonna happen if you admit it? That you'll get struck by lightning or something?

Yes.

[ Tosses a towel at Kanda's head. ]

Dumbarse.

Get the blanket, I think we're ready. I'll finish putting things in the basket and we can go find a nice spot by the River to sit.

[It clonks dully off of his skull and lands on the ground.

Kanda moves to go do that, leaving the basket in Allen's care.]

It's just easier, [he mutters as he starts walking out,] I can't feel bad when someone dies if I don't get attached. That's all.

[Death is inevitable. That's just how it is. Pushing people away at least makes the loss easier to deal with.

Kanda will be back in a second, he left the blanket out on the couch.]

[ Allen stops what he's doing to whip around and just fucking stare at Kanda as he's heading off. He huffs, and then finishes packing everything else up and grabbing the basket, only to chase Kanda down after. ]

That's bloody stupid! [ Thanks, Allen. ] Feeling bad is just a part of life! But that's why you take the bad with the good, you prick! Having that mentality- [ Pause. ] Why even follow me at all for all those months if that's what you really thought?!

[ He reaches up with his free hand to scratch the top of Tim's head and puts on a big smile. ]

I know I'm not going to have Timcanpy when we go back home. It's going to hurt when I go back. But I'm not going to push him away because I want it to hurt less. I'm going to make as many memories as I can with Timcanpy, that way I have plenty of them for when I go back. I'll be hurting when I lose him, but I'll have my friends, and my memories.

[ He puts his hand down to look at Kanda fully now. ]

I'll have you, too, Kanda. And... I'll make a lot of happy memories with you to remember when we go back! So, you're not allowed to say anything like that anymore!

[Kanda's eyes just say "can we not I'm fucking tired" as he looks over at Allen. Please. His PTSD. He doesn't know the word for anything going on in his head or why he makes so many excuses for Allen but please.

He folds the blanket over his arm and just sort of... nods, the fight relatively knocked out of him for now.]

Right. Whatever you say.

Let's get going. You can pick your favourite spot, or... whatever. [He doesn't know.]

[ Ah. That expression. He was trying to... be positive, but... maybe it was better to not say anything at all? Should he apologize? Should he tell Kanda he doesn't have to do this? Should he push more about it because it's important to Allen that Kanda doesn't have thoughts like that? Should he pretend it never happened? Should he try to gently talk about with Kanda??? He suddenly feels like he doesn't know anything at all.

... This is stupid, isn't it? Kanda had been excited to go on a date with Allen, and it hasn't even begun yet is already falling apart because of Allen. Brilliant... He grips the the handle of the basket tightly in his hands and laughs. Not because anything is funny, but because his brain can't process anything else to do in the moment. He's hardly aware of how he's feeling.

But, at the very least, it's a laugh that he uses to shake off this bout of negativity. Like shaking the snow off of a pine tree. He spins around and heads out the door. ]

'Course! I have just the place!

[ Spoiler: it's where they kissed and became "boyfriends" ]

[Wow, that's gay.

Kanda follows after, keeping the pace with Allen at his side but clearly a half-step behind so that he can be led along. He could hold Allen's hand, but he realises he's suddenly nervous about doing so in public, thinking to himself that it's probably what you're supposed to do on a date, that it makes sense to do so. But his palms are sweaty at the thought and then he's looking down at his hand like "why" and surely Allen is going to see that, and then Kanda looks at him and his brain short-circuits and he just sort of.

Brushes their hands together vaguely?? and does not grip.]

Great.

[GREAT, he says, like a goddamn loser. Why didn't he have a problem kissing Allen with tongue multiple times, but he has a problem with dating??? They made out on the goddamn greenhouse floor and Allen was so attractive yanking him around and Kanda was like, oh yeah this I can do, but he can't hold a hand?

On God.]

[ Allen looks back at Kanda briefly as their hands touch, confused. It's his human hand, even, since his Innocence is currently being used to tote around the picnic basket, so Allen doesn't think that's the issue. Is his hand still sticky from the fruit? No, no, he washed his hands before they left. So...? Maybe Kanda isn't sure if Allen wants to hold hands? That's stupid. Since when does Allen turn down physical affection, ever?

Anyway, he's reaching back to take Kanda's hand, giving a little reassuring squeeze. He'll do better! This is not going to be a failure of a date, he swears to God-

He will have to let go once they get to the spot, though, so. uh. Have fun with your minute of handholding, I suppose! ]

You spent shells on this stuff, didn't you? You should let me pay you back for it.

[He's NERVOUS!!! But at least he accepts the handholding, for however brief it lasts.

Last time they were in this specific spot, it was dark outside. Now it's the middle of the daytime, and Kanda can still clearly recognize that this is the spot where they rolled in the mud and kissed each other stupid. His face somehow manages to get redder.]

I don't think you're supposed to pay someone back for a date, Beansprout.

The date is free! The stuff for it had to be bought though, innit? I don't mind. I've been coming out here a lot to get shells in my downtime, so...

[ He lets go of Kanda's hand and finds somewhere to put the basket down briefly. Then he just kind of stares at Kanda for a moment, a soft smile on his face. He's... funny. To be so flustered over something like this. It's not like Allen can talk too much. After all, he's also got quite a bit of red to his cheeks. Nothing that rivals Kanda's, though.

He doesn't say anything for a few seconds, just... taking all of this in, and trying to swallow the want to kiss Kanda on his face right now. He'll clear his throat eventually, though. ]

Go ahead and shake the blanket out, I'll help flatten it.

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